It really hasn't sunk in that Wednesday will be my last day at work, in our house or in WI.
Thursday was our monthly bereaved parent support group-the last one I will likely ever attend. I thought it would be difficult emotionally, but I'm blocking. I'm blocking my emotions about moving because I think they're just too heavy for me to deal with right now. I think it will really hit me next week, after we've begun moving in to the new house.
Gus last day of preschool was Friday. I had Jon do drop-off and pick-up because I knew that that would be a situation that I would leave the school crying if I had to do it. I worry so much about setting up a new life in a completely different state where I don't know anyone. Will Gus make friends? Will I enjoy being a SAHM? Will we make friends?
Today we're having a going away get-together for Gus. I think it will be crazy and hectic, but I don't think that even that will make it sink in that our days here are extremely limited. I just hope that when the floodgates of my emotions open that I'm able to deal with them in an okay manner.
We'll see.
It is a lot to go from working to SAHM. It took us 13 years to have Isaac--and of those 13 years I worked ALL OF THEM. For me, I love being at home. What I did was make myself a pseudo schedule--Monday for example I'd do the laundry and then take him to Lapsit (reading time) at the library. Tuesday was scrub kitchen and bathroom day and then a trip to the local park. Wednesday I'd clean the dining room and living room and then go to a play date...etc. I found meetup.com to be very helpful--you plug in your interests and local and can find a TON of play groups, and groups for Mom and Dad. Isaac has made a group of friends this way, as have I. Just give it a whirl and don't sweat the small stuff! Everything has a way of working out!
ReplyDeleteI know, in my head, that everything will work out, but you know how it is when you start to worry about the unknown? That's me.
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