If Firefly Had Lived

I've never really had the bittersweet and conflicting thoughts of knowing that if Oscar and Bella had lived that Tittle and Gus would never have been conceived and Gus wouldn't be here. That wasn't my reality. My reality is that Oscar, Bella and Tittle DID die. My reality is that Gus did live. Within the last couple of weeks, those thoughts have surfaced regarding Firefly. I wasn't prepared for them.

Ramblings

Warning: Random typing ahead, who knows what will come out!

She has a tooth :(

Yes, you read that title correctly, I am sad that Lucy has her first tooth.

Toenail Removal

This morning I had my toenail removed, and it is not an experience I hope to repeat...ever.

Not looking forward to March

I know it's already March 1, so it may be incorrect to say I'm not looking forward to March, but that's what I'm going with.

Counselor Consultation

My original appointment with a counselor was for February 4, but that morning I got a call stating the counselor I would be seeing was home ill. My appointment took place yesterday.

Meeting with Principal and Teachers

On Wednesday, we met with Gus' principal and teachers to discuss Gus getting pushed.

4-year-old bullying

For the past several months, Gus has shared stories of things that have happened at school that have involved kids "fighting" and "pushing" him. I didn't really pay attention to the frequency of these incidents nor the names of the children involved. Last week that changed.

Tittle's Day 2015

5 years ago this today Jon and I learned that our 3rd child, Tittle died.

PPD?

A couple weeks ago, Jon told me that he wanted me to find a new counselor as he thought I had postpartum depression and/or depression that was still unresolved from when Oscar and Bella died.