Well, that sucks

 Jon was laid off on Friday. Not due to anything he did or didn't do. His company was bleeding money, and his department got put on the chopping block. So, Friday before Mother's Day was not the best day. And it was a day I was supposed to be volunteering for the PTA at the staff appreciation luncheon. So, I got through that, shed some tears, and now we're here.

Jon reached out to his connections, and by the end of today, had submitted applications for six different positions. He will likely take a pay cut, but with that will be a reduction in stress, which will be a good thing. That doesn't mean I'm not nervous or scared, because who wants to lose money, but we've been okay on less than what he was making, so we'll be okay on his new salary, whatever it will be. It will just takes some adjustments to our mindsets. We'll have to stop and think again before spending any money, and it can't be an automatic.

The thought of not being able to have the kids do their extra-curriculars is super hard right now. The only thing Gus is really interested in is indoor skydiving, which isn't cheap. A 15-minute lesson is about $270 Which we were able to afford monthly before. Now, who knows? I've given some thought to getting a part-time job, but then the worries and obstacles rear up, and I get scared and nervous.

I've looked into what it would take to get my substitute teaching license, and while the process isn't hard, would I cut it? Would it even be worth to have if I suck as a sub? There are other jobs with school districts that I might enjoy, but because I'm on the school board, I can't get a job in my own district, which means schedules might not line up with days off. What am I going to do with Lucy if I have to work and there's no school?

There's also the loss of flexibility that I would really miss. Right now I get to set my own schedule for everything. If I get a part-time job (outside of a school district), will they give me summers and breaks off? Will they let me work one 8-hour shift a week? And even if they do, how do I get back into the job market when my depression is where it is right now? And with summer coming up?

Jon says I'm overthinking. That we need to wait and see what his income will be. He hasn't even had a job interview yet, so I'm worrying right now for nothing. And, we would make whatever job I have work. Even if I brought in a couple hundred dollars a month, that would help with funding the indoor skydiving. So, that gave me some perspective that I don't need to find a super full-time job. I'd basically need to sub 2 times per month, or work one 8-hour shift twice a month at a non-school job to bring in (before taxes) around $250.

I have a friend who recently re-entered the workforce by subbing, so I reached out to her so we could chat about the process and how it's going. So, we'll see.