Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Diabetes is...sucky, hard, frustrating, overwhelming...

Since moving back to WI I've been seeing my new endocrinologist every three months, and my next appointment is on Friday. Per routine, I had my blood drawn today for my Hemoglobin A1c test. This test gives a clue as to how one's overall control has been for the previous 3 months. I was scared to have this test done, and now I'm feeling so many different emotions after seeing the result.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Responsibility-balancing parents and children

How do you know when to pass on responsibility for something to a child? What is the line between helping, enabling and doing it for them?

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

I'm Scared

I was really, really hoping that another person in the Senate would vote no for Betsy DeVos. Unfortunately, that didn't happen. And now, I'm feeling scared, anxious and nervous.

Monday, February 6, 2017

#Microblog Monday: Today was a good day

There is a lot of negativity in our world. For whatever reason, I was able to take on a new perspective today.

I may not completely fit the definition, but I felt awesome today. This morning I had three tasks I wanted to complete before Lucy's nap was done. By the end of her nap, I had completed them, and through one I completed another task not on my high-priority list.

So, in this world where we are constantly told that we aren't enough, that we don't get enough done, that our efforts are not enough, I'm going to celebrate accomplishing what I wanted to accomplish today: placing Gus' and Lucy's pizza dinner order, scheduling a haircut for Gus, contacting the city to get an extra recycling bin with the bonus of finding out how to get rid of Jon's broken recumbent bike.

Did you have any victories today?

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Reflections on our move: 7 months later

It has been almost 7 months since we've moved. There are a few things I miss about Iowa, but overall, I am so, so glad that we are back.

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Getting back to me

It's been awhile since I've been here, and I'm recommitting, again, to try to write here more often. In the midst of the political turmoil that is happening right now, I NEED to do something with my downtime other than scroll through FB and other websites that don't fill me with good things. I know I need to stay in-the-know and take action for what is important to me, but what I've been doing has not been good for the overall me. So, instead of using my downtime to read news articles that make me shake my head or anger me or make my mouth drop open, I'm going to do something that "fills my cup" so that I can continue on every day feeling better, instead of worse, about what might happen in my life as a result of our new government situation.

So, I'm going to try to write here, again. Some posts may be short, some may be long, some may be rambling, but I'm hoping they will help me sort out my brain, worries, fears, excitements and love.

Monday, January 30, 2017

Tittle Day 2017-7 years

On January 25, it was 7 years since we found out that Tittle had died. This is the first year that I've looked forward to honoring his day. There were still some tears, which is expected, but overall, it was a great day honoring our sneaky Tittle.

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Time Passes Quickly

I simply cannot believe that it's almost Christmas. Is that a good thing? That life is full that the days seem to fly by? While that may be true, I wish some days would slow down.

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Voices

I'm not one, really, to discus politics with people who I don't know really, really well. Many can't have a discussion about politics and it quickly becomes an argument. I want discussion, not argument, so I usually refrain from talking about it at all. But, this is my space, for me, so here I go talking about the election results in no organized fashion.

Monday, October 31, 2016

Capture Your Grief 2016-Day 31: Sunset Reflection

This post is part of Carly Marie's Capture Your Grief.

On this last day, take some time out to watch the sunset from wherever you are in the world and reflect on this last month. How do you feel? What have you learned? What did you dislike? What did you like?

As the sun set tonight, I didn't watch the sunset. Instead I was walking with a little moose who just wanted to keep up with her big brother Spiderman. In past years, I would have gotten down on myself for missing the sunset, missing the focus on the kids who aren't here and are missing Halloween. instead, I was with Lucy and Gus. My life and joys go on and come from them and Jon. I am learning to be more forgiving of myself and tr not to berate myself if I don't stop and focus on what I'm missing. Some days I'm better at this than others, but that is life with grief. Taking each day as it comes.