Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Quilt Square (100th Post)

As I spoke about here, I've been working on a quilt square. I finished it at 2pm last Thursday; group started at 7:30pm.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

It's a girl

One of the friends that was induced yesterday delivered her second rainbow...a girl.

Oh, how my heart aches for my Bella. How my heart is angry that my friend was able to easily get pregnant (this pregnancy was an oops) and deliver a healthy second rainbow. She has a boy at home and now a girl. That is supposed to be me, my life. That was taken from me when Oscar and Bella died. And now we don't even know if we'll get to bring home a second rainbow, much less a girl.

My heart is heavy and sad.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

A very trying week

Jon is traveling this week, which makes things hard, but this week is turning out to be exceptionally difficult.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

A Beautiful Sky

I started a post earlier today, that was going to be about how much I was missing Oscar and Bella, but apparently, there was a reason why I didn't get to finish and publish it. I needed to wait for the beautiful sky.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013 least trying

Jon, Gus and I had a very good time at the cottage. Well, Gus had a great time, we had fun being with him having such a great time, but we slept horribly. So, for a three-day weekend, I think that's a good trade-off.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

In contrast: Update on Gus

In contrast to my earlier post, I just had to share all the positive things going on with Gus.

Feels like I'm living in a nightmare

I'm still really struggling with not being pregnant and being on a TTC break. This weekend was especially difficult.