Tuesday, March 1, 2016

I miss this place, but not the emotions that come with it

I miss coming here to write. I have things going on in my life that I need an outlet for, so why am I not coming here to get the out and process them? Because dealing with the emotions that come with them is hard.

It's hard to sit down and feel the emotions of how angry I am at my MIL.

It's hard to sit down and feel the emotions of feeling like a failure as a wife, mother and diabetic.

It's hard to sit down and admit that I'm really lonely.

It's hard to sit down and come to terms with the fact that I don't know who I really am now that I'm done having kids, don't have an outside of the home job, don't have my bereaved parent support group and feel like I don't matter much to the world.

I need to stop avoiding my emotions and start dealing with them.

I hope to come here at least once every week to write something, to process something and to work on myself and my emotions.

It's time to stop ignoring me.

Please wish me luck.

4 comments:

  1. I'll be here whenever you want to write.

    Abiding with you.

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    1. Thank you so much. It means a lot.

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  2. It's definitely so important to take care of yourself first. I hope recommitting to writing here help.

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