9w2d: March 14, 2014. We had a scheduled appointment at the Perinatal Clinic. Jon and I knew we would not be happy if we did not get confirmation that Bean was still alive. We shared the significance of the gestational age we were with the nurse. She told us she had to try with the doppler before they could do an u/s. I knew she wouldn't be able to find Bean's heartbeat with the doppler, so I had no anxiety as she was searching and searching.
She needed to go download my pump and I needed to go pee in a cup. A short time after I got back in the room a different nurse came in and asked if she could try to find it on the doppler. I figured she wouldn't, but she tried. She then went out and got an u/s machine and brought it into the room, got it plugged in and we waiting for it to boot up. Just as it was ready the MFM fellow came in and did the u/s. I couldn't see the screen at all, but Jon could. He wasn't saying anything, but he was getting scared. He could see Bean, but there was no movement and no heartbeat. Then, the doc moved the transducer and there it was...a beautiful beating heart.