Gus' Costume is Done!!

I finished Gus' costume almost one hour ago, and I am so happy.

1st Grade

This year, Oscar and Bella would have started 1st grade. On November 2, Gus will do a trial run of 1st grade for four days. I'm an emotional mess.

We almost have a tail!

Way back in April or May I offered to sew Gus' Halloween costume, or we could go with a store-bought costume. He chose to have me sew him one, and he chose a black dragon with red spines. I found a pattern, bought it and then sat with it, not starting the project until September. Now, it's 9 days from when it needs to be done and I'm so far behind. I've already come to terms that I'm not going to do the mittens or feet, and probably not the hood. All I want to do is get the jumpsuit done, and hope that he's happy with it. Well, last night I almost finished step #2: the tail. Step one was putting the zipper in the front of the costume. Step 2 is the tail. Still have a lot to do, but hope that I can get it done for him. I think I'm going to have a lot of late nights trying to finish this costume, but it's my own fault. *sigh*

Tights

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Tonight at 7pm, Jon and I will light candles in memory of Oscar, Bella, Tittle and Firefly. Today Lucy wore tights for the first time.

Lucy is One!

Today was Lucy's birthday. I only cried a few times, but would have balled way more had we not also had her party today.

1 month

How is it that it's been one month since I've been back here, to this this place that gave me an outlet to process what what going on in my head?

Maybe it's because I'm focused more on what's in front of me, what surrounds me every day, and when I sit down during a break, I don't want to process. I want to relax. I'm not saying that there isn't stuff to process, but during the breaks that I have that's what I want, a real break.

I do have to admit that I miss this space, but this last year with having two living children at home, it's been nice to not process for a bit. I think that's where I've been. Just trying to LIVE my life, instead of processing what's going on in my life. I'm sure I'll get back to processing, especially as Lucy turns one in just about a week, but I'll save that for another day.