National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

Today begins National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. While I'm glad that there is a month devoted to our "cause", it's something we live with year-round, not just in October.

Capture Your Grief Day 1: Sunrise

This post is part of Carly Marie's Capture Your Grief.

Just like last year, I thought it would be very meaningful for us all to capture the beginning of this journey and important month by us all getting up early to photograph the sunrise from wherever we are in the world.

Quilt Square (100th Post)

As I spoke about here, I've been working on a quilt square. I finished it at 2pm last Thursday; group started at 7:30pm.

It's a girl

One of the friends that was induced yesterday delivered her second rainbow...a girl.

Oh, how my heart aches for my Bella. How my heart is angry that my friend was able to easily get pregnant (this pregnancy was an oops) and deliver a healthy second rainbow. She has a boy at home and now a girl. That is supposed to be me, my life. That was taken from me when Oscar and Bella died. And now we don't even know if we'll get to bring home a second rainbow, much less a girl.

My heart is heavy and sad.

A very trying week

Jon is traveling this week, which makes things hard, but this week is turning out to be exceptionally difficult.

Infuriating: Custody in divorce determined by genetics?

This story infuriates me.

A Beautiful Sky

I started a post earlier today, that was going to be about how much I was missing Oscar and Bella, but apparently, there was a reason why I didn't get to finish and publish it. I needed to wait for the beautiful sky.

Floating...at least trying

Jon, Gus and I had a very good time at the cottage. Well, Gus had a great time, we had fun being with him having such a great time, but we slept horribly. So, for a three-day weekend, I think that's a good trade-off.

In contrast: Update on Gus

In contrast to my earlier post, I just had to share all the positive things going on with Gus.

Feels like I'm living in a nightmare

I'm still really struggling with not being pregnant and being on a TTC break. This weekend was especially difficult.