I then laid in bed for the next hour and a half trying to fall asleep. I eventually did, though, because when the alarm went off at 5:15am I was dreaming. I promptly went into the bathroom and peed in a cup. Jon, apparently not knowing how to knock, came in while I was still pulling my pants up. We opened both FRER and internet tests, dipped and started the timer.
The line on the FRER showed up around the 1-minute mark. By the end of the 5-minute testing window for the internet test, there still wasn't an easily readable line!! Yes, internet cheapie HPT's are cheap, but in my experience they just caused me more stress!
I went in for my blood draw and beta is 109. I've cautiously excited. This is a good number, I know it is, but that doesn't mean my heart can relax. I can go in on Friday or Monday for a repeat beta for my mental health, but only if I want to since the clinic considers this a strong number. I'm not sure if I want to. Since the clinic is not covered by my insurance, it is $100 for another test, on top of the $100 from this morning. Is it going to be worth it? Yes, I will know whether or not by betas have doubled, but will that give me any lasting peace? I don't think so. I think, instead, I will use the internet
My head count u/s is scheduled for February 26, so it's another long wait. I know that time will pass, but it just seems so far away. Jon's interview is next week, and since the whole family is going, getting ready for that will take up some of the time. But there's also an added stress. I know how my care will be during this pregnancy if we stay where we are. I have NO CLUE what the standard of care is where we would be moving to. Are they going to be open and willing to hear what I want and follow-through on those?
I'm also conflicted about when to share our news with people IRL. Do we share right away? Do we not? Do we share with some and not others? Either choice has positives and negatives, and I'm not sure which one is the best choice right now. I think I need to just sit on it and see how I feel about it tomorrow.