Happy Birthday

Four years:

Where did they go?

Four years:

Seems like yesterday.

Four years:

What would you be like?

Four years:

What would you look like?

Four years:

Starting school this fall.

Four years:

I miss you every day.

Four years:

I love you still.

Four years:

How I wish you were here.

Four years:

How I wish I could feel your arms around me.

Four years:

How I wish we could do things together, instead of me doing things in your honor.

Four years:

I see you in the sunrises and sunsets.

Four years:

Your little brother sees you in them, too.

Four years:

How I love to hear your names.

Four years:

I love you, always.

Happy Birthday, my sweet Oscar and Bella. I love you so much, to the stars and back.

A Very Busy Weekend

A lot has happened since my last post.

My estrogen has dropped

What?!? How did that happen? Even with it dropping, my lining has increased.

Ugh!

Yesterday morning, 10 minutes after I sat down at my desk for work, Jon called.

"What day is our next (fertility) appointment?"

"Wednesday."

"I need to get on a plane today and I'll be back on Wednesday night."

Convergence

It just seems that my past, present and future are all converging on me.

CD5: Still feeling lost

We had our CD3 appointment on Monday. I have no cysts, my E2 came back at 74.8, and we started Follistim that night. I still feel lost.

CD1 and lost

It's official. I tested this morning and it was a Big Fat Negative, so I have a CD3 appt scheduled for 8am on Monday.

All hope is gone

I've resigned. I have no more hope for this cycle.

Feeling Very Negative, but Hope Still Hangs On (A lot of TMI)

So, after the spotting yesterday, I had nothing more when going to the bathroom or anything. Then, still nothing this morning the first time I went to the bathroom (immediately after waking).

And here we go again

I've been doing reasonable well this cycle, at least better than last cycle when I was obsessively taking pictures of HPTs and then making the pics negative. The trip to the cottage really helped take my mind off the TWW, but now this has started.

Guest Blog and Other Ramblings

My guest blog post is up at No Good Eggs!!!

In other ramblings, I'm really hoping that this paragraph, from this article, explains why my blood sugars are going completely crazy.

Holiday Away

We just got back today from a weekend away for Independence Day, and it couldn't have been better timing.