31st Anniversary

That's right. Today is my anniversary. 31 years ago today my parents' lives were thrown for a loop. I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes.

Capture Your Grief Day 28: Special Place

This post is part of Carly Marie's Capture Your Grief.

This could be your baby’s place of rest. If they do not have a grave, maybe you have a special place that you associate with your baby. A place you go to, to remember them. Where is it? Why did you choose that particular place?

Capture Your Grief Day 27: Signs

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If you believe in life after death do you believe your child has ways of contacting you? Have you had any signs?

Capture Your Grief Day 25: #SayItOutLoud

This post is part of Carly Marie's Capture Your Grief. 

Say It Out Loud is The STILL Project’s famous hashtag. STILL is a feature-length documentary film project aimed at breaking the cycle of silence surrounding pregnancy and infant loss. If you could say anything out loud about your journey with grief with the death or your baby, what would it be? What do you want the world to know? Is there a cause that touches your heart that you want to raise awareness for?

Capture Your Grief Day 23: Tattoos/Jewellery

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Do you have a piece of jewellery in memory of your baby? Or maybe a tattoo.

Capture Your Grief Day 21: Honour

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Is there anything that you have done to honour your baby since they died? Did you give back to the community? Make a conscious decision to live as beautifully as possible? Take on the role of helping others in your situation? Maybe you work as an advocate for breaking the silence for our community.

Capture Your Grief Day 20: Hope

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Do you have hope for the future? What do you hope for those who will join this club in the future?

Post-Birthday Recap

Well, it's official; I'm another year older, plus a week.

Capture Your Grief Day 18: Release

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What do you want to let go of on this jouney of grief? Is it fear? Guilt? Worry? Deep sadness? Regrets?

Capture Your Grief Day 17: Time

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How long has it been since your baby died?

Capture Your Grief Day 16: Seasons

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Share what certain seasons or holidays mean to you now. What season did your baby die in? What season were they conceived/born in? Do you dread those seasons now? Are they more meaningful to you because of your baby?

Capture Your Grief Day 15: Wave Of Light

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Today is October 15th Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Light a candle at 7pm to help create a continuous wave of light around the world.

Capture Your Grief Day 14: Family

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What does your family look like now? Is it just yourself carrying your child's heart in yours? Do you have other children? A partner? A pet?

Capture Your Grief Day 12: Article

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 Have you read an article about grief that you would love to share with everyone?

Where I Am

I've been focusing so much on getting my posts done for Carly Marie's Capture Your Grief that I've left no time to blog for me.

Capture Your Grief Day 11: Emotional Triggers

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What triggers emotions associated with grief for you? Is it the weather? A scent? Places? Holidays? Words? Certain people?

Capture Your Grief Day 10: Beliefs

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Do you have a certain belief about what happens to us after we die?

Capture Your Grief Day 9: Music

This post is part of Carly Marie's Capture Your Grief.

This might be hard to capture in a photograph so why not post a youtube clip of a piece of music that reminds your of your baby/ies/child/ren. Why this piece of music?

Capture Your Grief Day 8: Colour

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What colour/s do you represent your baby? Why that colour/s?

Capture Your Grief Day 7: You Now

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Where are you in your grief right now? How are you feeling? How far have you come? Are you wrestling with anything? Is your heart heavier or lighter now?

Capture Your Grief Day 6: Ritual

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Do you have any rituals to help you get through the day? Maybe it is a daily affirmation or prayer. It could be that you light a candle or recite a mantra, etc. Do you do anything meaningful on special dates for your baby?

Capture Your Grief Day 5: Memory

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What memory do you have of your child that stands out for you the most. It may be a positive or negative memory. When you think of your child what is the first memory that comes to your mind?

Capture Your Grief Day 4: Legacy

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Do you believe your child left a legacy behind? It could be something very simple but meaningful.

Capture Your Grief Day 3: Myths

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Do you believe there are any myths about grief?

Capture Your Grief Day 2: Identity

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What is your child’s name? Why did you chose that name? What is the meaning of their name? If they were born, what were their birth details. What were their features? Who are they?

National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

Today begins National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. While I'm glad that there is a month devoted to our "cause", it's something we live with year-round, not just in October.

Capture Your Grief Day 1: Sunrise

This post is part of Carly Marie's Capture Your Grief.

Just like last year, I thought it would be very meaningful for us all to capture the beginning of this journey and important month by us all getting up early to photograph the sunrise from wherever we are in the world.